for good measure

this girl is such a pretentious asshole but i used to like her. oh well, tra la.

oh! oh!

and while i'm on the topic, THE LATE 90's were probably even better. gap cardigan sweater sets, body glitter, jewels in my hair à la courtney love, bonne belle lipgloss (strawberry), lilith fair, candies shoes, feathered pens, listening to jewel and watching felicity. oh, felicity. jesus i wish that show never ended. i'm the biggest closet felicity fan.

earlier i was talking to a friend about how leonardo dicaprio used to be fine as hell in 1996 around the time he was in that baz luhrmann version of romeo and juliet. then we talked about wearing denim skorts and having braces. i don't know i got thinking about all that; it was sort of organic, really. i get the strangest feeling thinking about being 12 again. i thought i hated it at the time but now i would give anything to spend a summer at home watching mtv spring break all day, eating brownies and listening to cds on my 5-disc player boombox. oh, and chatting on mIRC.

anyway, this video sort of embodies my 90s childhood.

then i saw her face

i'd like to say that shrek totally ruined that "i'm a believer" song by the monkees for me, but i think i really dislike it either way.

high school parties or how my family decided my fate in teen popularity

i just had a memory of being a teenager and going to parties where i'd be smoking pot and hanging with friends and my stepdad would come pick me up when i wouldn't answer my phone and send my brother louie in to get me. i'd be stoned and all of a sudden see louie and he'd say, dad said let's go. i'd tell him okay, i'll be there in a minute go back outside, but he'd stand there and say DAD SAID NOW and all the cooler older kids would snicker and i'd feel stupid as i walked out to my dad's minivan with everybody watching.

I NEED

a) to get out of default with my student loans so i can start receiving financial aid again and go to school
b) to find a job in austin
c) to find an apartment in austin
d) to find that fucking chapstick i just bought

i truly am

the last bastion.