what's worse?

i was going to pose this hypothetical question but i think i know my own answer, anyway. oh, foresight.

in other news, my back hurts, and i'm still at work, and i've eaten fucking subway twice today. disgusting. i wouldn't even eat it once if i didn't have to. i'm just so tired of tofu lo mein.

wah, wah.

this entry won't appear in my blog history without a title, for some reason

neat

excuse my absence, i've been busy slaving away at my job.

i may have a car at my disposal very, very soon!

watching people eat meat really disgusts me, and it didn't use to, but now it does. i guess that's how this works.

jesse james is the new tiger woods?!!!!!

agent cooper is fine as helllllllll.

halloween

so while all my friends spent the weekend in austin, i stayed home and watched the entire two seasons of twin peaks, one of my favorite shows. anyway, i decided that this halloween i am going to dress up as log lady. i'll probably end up really drunk by the end of the night and abandon my log but it's an idea. i realize that it's several months from now but i like planning these things. this past year i was dead sharon tate and got too drunk to support my fake pregnant stomach which was really a shirt that ended up unraveling and that i peed on towards the end of the night.

i googled log lady and looks like some dumb hipster bitch already beat me to this idea, but that's okay, i'll make a better log lady.

*here's another one!ugh!

missed connection

You are the most beautiful girl I've ever seen - m4w - 21 (houstoned)
Date: 2010-03-18, 12:11AM CDT
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When you smile at me with those gorgeous eyes, you completely make me lose any thought I had on my mind, and all I can think about is how perfect you are. When I stare at you, I completely lose it on the inside, but you probably can't tell, because I am cool and calm on the outside.

There is just something about you, I really think you are an angel. I don't think we will ever be together though, because i'm just not your "type," you never said that, but i can tell. It seems like i'm not most girls type. I'm so sick of getting rejected, played out, led on, having some other guy get picked over me. I don't understand that all. I'm so good looking, smart, funny, and sweet. I would love you with all my heart, and treat you like you are a princess, and you would mean the world to me. But if you want to be with that uglier, half ass version of me, so be it. I really want to fuck the shit out of you.

just thought you'd like to know

i'm dead tired. i'm going to get a haircut in a bit. (NEW HAIR, NEW LIFE!)

i think i'm going to buy a dart board for my garage. i like saying "my garage." also, i think i might invest in a washer and dryer for my garage.

i'm trying to convince nichole to sell me her green couch, it's fucking amazing and smells like mothballs. if she doesn't sell it to me, i will be pissed. no, not really. actually i really wonder if it would attract more cat hair than a regular couch because of the material? hmm.

i don't like it like this

i still haven't figured out how to do something other than embed stupid usermade videos from youtube. anyway, great song.

snobby me

okay so maybe i'm being petty but seeing all the blogs i follow on another person's list is annoying. especially when i know they cut out the legwork. what am i, 12? yeah okay but still. i remember whining to mom about my middle school best friend, coral, my cries falling on unsympathetic ears. "she had never even HEARD of the rocky horror picture show until i showed her and now she says it's HER favorite movie, too!" mom: "imitation is the highest form of flattery."

r.i.p. alex chilton

post no. 101

i finally joined netflix. now what the fuck do i order? i don't think i've seen anything that came out after 2006. i'm sort of stuck in 90's vhs mode.

i'll probably just order twin peaks and get reacquainted with it.

sail along, silvery moon

two blue hearts will seem lighter, you'll understand.

blogging from my phone is tedious

my entries are starting to be more about my mundane activities than anything else, which is boring. i just don't feel impressed with anything enough to write about it. or maybe it's just that so much else is going on that talking about it is cathartic, or something. um, not to say that everything is bad, it's not. i got the apartment on vassar, so the next couple of weeks will be spent packing. i may start next week, though, because i want to go to austin this weekend.

let me back up: this weekend was bizarre. friday i had delicious indian food with alan and tom and then went home to sleep. saturday i spent all day with nichole and accompanied her while she did her job, taking pictures of foreclosed homes and listening to ace of base. that in itself will get it's own entry later because nichole's boss is crazy and i took pictures.

saturday night: tacos a gogo, some country bar and the mink, drunkenly running back and forth between the three adjacent establishments. wrapped up the night watching the great gatsby and swooning over a young robert redford.

sunday: made plans to go to the beach but it got late and before i knew it, it was too dark and cold. ate pizza and watched the office with my cats.

everything feels so lackluster and empty. i imagine it always will. i hope not, though.

currently listening to: burt bacharach - walk on by
mood: complacent

(lol)

what else

my coworker, ruthy, has put her two weeks notice in. this means that i'm going to absorb her job duties on top of the ones i already have. this means more money, yes, but also a lot more responsibility. migraine headaches forthcoming.

i really want to go to the beach this weekend. it's beautiful outside and it won't be like this for long. i know of a few people that want to go so i'll probably just tag along.

alan just told me my apartment looks like what he imagines the back of half price books looks like. (vhs tapes and books scattered about.) he made fun of me for watching "singles" alone with my cat. maybe i'm the only person that doesn't see anything wrong with that scenario?

i may or may not go to sxsw. i really want to see liz and a few other friends that i haven't seen in a while, but i hate austin, and i hate music festivals. i doubt i'll even go to the free press summer fest. maybe i will, though. it's a few months away.

being depressed is sort of comforting in a strange way. i'm going to go eat indian food now with friendz, bye.

dear green warheads:

why must you be so ridiculously sour? other "sour" things aren't nearly as toothsuck-inducing as you are. you're almost not even edible. but, alas, i have the solution. i drop you into a glass of water, wait until the white film of sourness disintegrates into the water, and then and ONLY then can i place you onto my tongue and taste your residual satisfying flavor. but don't worry, i've found a use for your discarded sour skin. it makes for a wonderfully fizzy green apple water. it's sort of like flavored vitamin water but not as thin. i'm disgusting, i know.

i love this song

1-4

what's new with me, see:

1. i am getting an amazing apartment, moving in april 1st, on vassar street, the street in the aforementioned blog. it's a garage apartment, and the garage is mine, too. it has a back patio and a driveway. the hardwood floors are really nice and the kitchen is adorable. the best part is it's only 600 dollars a month. i don't know how i find such good deals!

2. i have been watching the american office, which is really weird, because i firmly believe the uk one is better but i like the direction the american one is going in. that is, i'm only on season 4 and i don't know anything about season 6, which is the season currently airing on nbc. AND I DON'T WANT TO KNOW, SO DON'T TELL ME ANYTHING ABOUT IT.

3. i bought this really cool "furbuster" comb for the cats. it sheds off all the loose hairs. this is a very promising tool, because my cats are hairy as fuck and leave their hair all over my furniture. i tried to comb ira with it but he cried and acted like a baby about it so i only got maybe 1/2 lb. of hair off him. i know the comb didn't even hurt him because i tested it on myself and i would never hurt my babies.

4. i've been hanging a lot more with hannah and that's awesome, even though all we do is laundry and eat and go to target. it's really fun. i'm boring.

i need to think of a new URL and title (and direction, really) for this blog. input appreciated.

living spaces

the girl who listed the apartment called me and i am going to see it tomorrow! then i got a call back about another garage apartment i'd inquired about on colquitt close to my old apartment and i'm going to see it on monday. i took my bike out for the first time in a while and rode around my neighborhood and scoped out apartments and one that i saw on vassar is renting for really cheap and i'm going to see IT tomorrow. vassar is a really private and tucked away street that winds in a curvy way and has lots of trees. not long ago, i'd told a friend of mine that i wanted to live in a certain house on that street. they have a sun room of sorts with all glass walls. it's the kind of room you'd want to drink wine in at 6:42 pm on a night like this.

it's just been one of those weeks

my roommate is too wrapped up in impressing his girlfriend or whatever she is to pay rent on time, i just found out from the current owner of my old car that all it needed was brake fluid and not new brakes,my front doorknob is all loose for some reason, i can't go anywhere this weekend even if i wanted to because i have to work and don't want to get into any sort of situation that i'm not ready for, i am angry and pmsing and annoyed and oh yeah the funny thing is i got a text last night from somebody i haven't spoken to in a while and this person just wanted the number of a person i know and i told him i didn't have it but i really did and just felt like being an uncooperative bitch. fuck this week. i wish it were this weekend that the river oaks was showing casablanca because i'd go watch it alone.

oh yeah and i'm having some sort of allergic reaction to something i ate and the corners of my mouth are red and inflamed and painful. and i have been dying for a cigarette all week. i haven't smoked in several months and i just want to smoke a pack right now.

pleas, please

help
i'm fucking drowning
and this huge manatee won't get off of me
i think he's going to crush my lungs

spring reading list

and also wisconsin death trip by michael lesy, which i couldn't find an image for.

i am lost, so i am cruel

archiving the web

i'm probably one of the last people to discover this, as usual, but i found this website, http://web.archive.org, that took screen shots of different websites throughout the years in their different developmental stages. in other words, if i wanted to remember what livejournal looked like back in 1999 when i actually had a livejournal account, a click of the mouse and voila. i'm disgusted and enthralled.

some of my favorite archived pages:

http://web.archive.org/web/19981212020756/rock.yahoo.com/
early yahoo music, you'd type in a band name and 50 similar artists would pop up. i owe all of my knowledge of bands as a child to this tool.

http://web.archive.org/web/20000815052956/geocities.yahoo.com/home/
geocities! learning how to use hmtl! sparkly backgrounds and lime green italicized times new roman font! page counters!

http://web.archive.org/web/19981207055015/http://www.mirc.com/
irc chatting at its finest. pinging, slapping with trouts, trivia chat rooms, ops (@) and voices (+), scripts, winnuking! i'll always remember my favorite server was jade.va.us.dal.net

http://web.archive.org/web/19970218072527/http://www.gap.com/
the gap was my favorite store as a 12 year old. i think i like this link purely because it reminds you how disgusting gap's logo used to be. i particular remember that white tag with boring black font in all my khaki pants.

if you don't mind the occasional broken image link and feel like a trip down memory lane, i highly suggest taking a look at this awesomely nostalgic website.

my ever growing vhs collection

i never thought i'd be the type of person to collect movies. i mean, sure - i like movies, but lately all i spend my time doing is watching them. i think i've spent like thirty bucks at half price books on dollar clearance vhs movies in the past two weeks. i like the collection i've got going, too:

200 cigarettes 
a hard day's night
all about my mother
almost famous
american beauty
american graffiti
american psycho
an affair to remember
annie hall
as good as it gets
back to the future
bambi
bananas
beetlejuice
being john malkovich
the big chill
breakfast at tiffany's
the breakfast club
bridges of madison county
casablanca
chasing amy
clerks
clockwork orange
clueless
copycat
the craft
crimes and misdemeanors
cruel intentions
dancer in the dark
dial m for murder
the discreet charm of the bourgeoisie
dumb and dumber
e.t.
edward scissorhands
empire records
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
everyone says i love you
faces 
fantasia
fargo
fast times at ridgemont high
fear
ferris bueller's day off
ghost in the shell
the graduate
grease
groundhog day
hannah and her sisters
happiness
heathers
high fidelity 
home alone
home alone 2: lost in new york
igby goes down
interview with the vampire
jfk
kids
kids in the hall: brain candy
klute
labyrinth 
the land before time
legends of the fall
the little mermaid
little shop of horrors
lolita (the one with jeremy irons)
love and death
mallrats 
meet joe black
the mighty ducks
mrs. doubtfire
the neverending story
the neverending story ii: the next chapter
now, voyager
one flew over the cuckoo's nest
the pelican brief
pretty in pink
the princess bride
pulp fiction
raising arizona
reality bites 
rear window
risky business 
robin hood (disney)
rocky horror picture show
romeo & juliet (franco zeffirelli's)
romeo & juliet (baz luhrmann's)
romy and michelle's high school reunion
rosemary's baby
the royal tenenbaums
rushmore
sabrina (the one with harrison ford)
the sandlot
say anything
scream
selena
serendipity 
sex, lies, and videotape 
shag
the shining 
sideways 
sixteen candles
the sound of music 
st. elmo's fire
stardust memories
suburbia 
teenage mutant ninja turtles
the talented mr. ripley
the truth about cats and dogs
this is spinal tap
to kill a mockingbird
toy story
uncle buck
valley girl
valley of the dolls
wayne's world
welcome home roxy carmichael
what about bob?
what have i done to deserve this?
when harry met sally
where the boys are
wild at heart
willy wonka and the chocolate factory
wizards

february playlist

bill withers - lovely day
the rolling stones - she smiled sweetly
french kicks - love in the ruins
coldplay - don't panic
stevie wonder - my cherie amour
elvis - suspicious minds
slowdive - machine gun
cocteau twins - summerhead
radiohead - reckoner
paul mccartney - goodnight tonight
sa-ra creative partners - melodee n'mynor
joe hisaishi - merry-go-round of life
ryuichi sakamoto - bibo no aozora
patsy cline - crazy

holy shit, it's fuckin' march.