ugh

i was just afforded a view of the girl who lives in the duplex to the left of mine cuddled in bed with her boyfriend. his leg was draped over hers and his arms were around her. she just moved in and doesn't have any curtains up, so it's not like i was spying or anything, although i probably stood there staring longer than i should have. i felt a sharp pang in my heart as i tried to recall the last time i'd been held that way. a year, at least. i want somebody to throw their leg over me in a comfortable and familiar way.